Because it makes it so akward. I find it hard to be gay and to accept it. I feel like it limits me. But I am free, I don't believe in labels. Even then, I know I'll never be as confortable as I am with a girl, with a boy. That's just impossible. But then why do I find them so attractive? I spend my time looking for the of a man and for the love of a woman. I want to marry a girl. I know it and I feel it from inside my fucking bones. The hardest part really is everyday. Almost everyday, mostly at work, I get called 'Ma belle' from my co-workers and I find it sooo fucking akward. But I am absolutely not ready to come out as gay to them. Sigh
cest meme pas quils en on rien a foutre de moi, cest juste pas de vrais amis. ce sont pas les gens que je pensais quils étaient. thats what happens. thats life. dans le fond, cet ptetre moi qui leur en demande trop. jaimerais bien ca que tout le monde me reponde toujours au telephone. a la place, je tombe sur des repondeur. my texts doesnt get answered. ouais ben tout ca ca mfait me sentir vraiment comme de la marde.