Lately things have been weird. Things have changed. I'm okay with it, but still. When I actually take time to sit down a minute, I just don't believe how things had changed. My mom and dad are breaking up, my bestfriend really isnt my bestfriend, I have new interest in life, I changed. It's hard to let go of the past because it's the only I know that won't change. Futur is scary. Everyday, I have to see my mom cry and tell her everything's gonna be fine. I have to tell my dad to make something of his life cause I can see in his eyes that he is unhappy. It takes courage to admit your wrongs, but divorce is just a easy-pass. It's only a way to not have to take the blame, to not have to deal with anything. It's for quitters. I think my dad is a quitter, and that my mom is weak. On my side, I feel empty. I want to feel love again. I want to have soemone in my life who will love me and take my like I am. Someone that will make me want to open up. Saying I don't trust anybody is a lie, cause I do trust some people, but I won't tell my secret to just anyone. a few knows about how I feel. People who reads my blog knows my saddest side, in general. My everyday friends knows me happy, smiling, and all. A very, very, very few people sees both. Not because I don't love them or dont trust them, but because Im sacred. Im scared to get hurt. Like everybody. I miss how in peace with myself I used to be.